One thing I truly know is I won't become pregnant again. We've been through the death of a baby, a baby born on the edge of viability, and a baby that came 6 weeks early. I've had two classical c-sections which puts me at risk for uterine rupture...on top of the fact that precipitous preterm labor seems to be what my body wants to do when it's pregnant. Lifting -- Jack is over 40 lbs and his wheelchair is close to 100 lbs. Just not an option for me while pregnant!
My heart swells when I think of another baby. A baby grown in our hearts and in another mommy's belly. Over a year ago we started researching adoption. With all my heart I feel this is what is meant for us. This is by no means an announcement of any sort -- but just getting it out there, in the open so we can talk about it. We've gathered information on all types of adoption and found an agency in our state that we'd like to meet with when the time is right.
I've been packing away the baby items as Morgan grows. I stare at newborns on TV or in the mall with a lump in my throat. We really could have another baby some day! There are days when it's simply crazy at our house and I wonder if we could do it...but we have room in our hearts and love to give. I love being a mother to my children and I know Jason loves being a daddy too.
We have been doing some talking too(although in more of a distant future)...I also replied to "to the max" and it has been something running through my mind at times...sometimes thinking "what am I thinking" other times really wanting another.
ReplyDeleteI can definitly understand your thoughts on adopting!
You would make great adoptive or foster parents there are so mealy kids out there, Especially those with disabilities
ReplyDeleteHow wonderful you are willing to adopt - it takes a special family to be willing to do this - and that is you guys! There are so many kids in need. I understand the yearn you have for another baby - as well as the need to accept that your body will not sustain a fullterm pregnancy. For us Sam will be our special one and only.
ReplyDeleteBeth Erikson
What a moving post... Funny, Dave and I were just talking about adopting today. But, third child still a big "if." Sounds like you are more decided. Maybe I will just live vicariously through you?!
ReplyDeleteHow wonderful. Adoption has always been something we want to do also! Even when life is crazy and things seem overwhelming, it is a phase of life and one more child will only bring more joy!
ReplyDeleteKeep us updated when you dive in for the commitment!
Merry Christmas
-Patty